I’ve just been doing a budget for 2016. I’ve never actually done a propper budget before, so this is new for me, and it turns out that it’s a great way to banish magical thinking around the subject of money.
I’ve always been a bit of a perfectionist – not that I achieve perfection, just that I really want to. Sometimes it’s paralysing, but I hadn’t really considered how that impacts my decluttering efforts until recently.
I haven’t written for a while largely because I fell off the wagon. Well, I mean I stopped cooking a lot, but I did start exercising more. And before that I was working really late (and achieving a major project at work). Instead of just falling over and giving up I’ve decided to really think about what’s happened and how to fix it (while crying over my restaurant spending this month).
I have decided I need to cook my meals from scratch more often. In fact it should be what I mostly do. There are a bunch of reasons for this, but the thing that really set me off was taking a really close look at my finances. I was spending a ridiculous amount of money eating out, and I have debts I want to pay off, but instead I was slowly creeping further and further into the red. So I needed to stop eating lunch at a cafe every day and eating dinner out several times a week.
It’s one of the ways you know you’re an adult, right? One day you just eat breakfast cereal for dinner, and no one can stop you! But then there’s the day when you eat breakfast for tea just because you can’t think of anything better to eat and it’s what’s in your cupboard. And it’s kind of depressing, but oh well? Then there’s the day you realise you’ve been doing it a lot. And that when you’re not feasting on rice bubbles you eat out. Or you eat a packet of chips. Or just…some random shit. Then you start shopping in order to have adequate random shit on hand, but since shopping requires thinking and thinking is hard you just buy a few boring and terrible things over and over. Which makes you want to eat out more, because out is where real food happens. For a price.